Hey, it’s been a while, huh? After posting my not-resolutions in February I fell off the Internet for a while, and mostly due to the first and last point on that list. A few things have been going on here:
I have a puppy!
I’ve crossed off point number 1 in my goals for 2018: I went and got myself a new dog! 😄❤🐶
Her name is Runa and she’s a Labrador mix that moved in with us in the end of February. I’ll do a proper introduction post about her later, just make do with the photo below for now.
I also no longer have a snake…
The weeks after Runa moved in were weird ones.
Only the day before we brought her home I found my corn snake, Flamma, dead in her terrarium. She had had some issues with her last shed and didn’t want to eat, but once the shed was over I figured she’d come around.
Apparently not. 💔
You don’t have the same relationship with a snake as you have with a dog or cat, but it’s still sad. I know Flamma had no concept of me or cared about me at all, but I knew and cared for her. For a long time too, she would’ve been 14 years old this summer.
Losing her AND getting a new puppy at the same time also made my grief for Zappo resurface. It’s almost a year since he passed, and I still miss him a lot.
I had both Zappo and Flamma for so long that losing both is like the end of an era. Like a definite end to… something. I don’t know, maybe it’s just the timing. It feels weird that the universe decided to get rid of both my old friends only 10 months apart. Either way, getting a new puppy right in the middle of that made me feel weirdly divided. It was/is a very tangible reminder of the wheel of time.
I sometimes think of my old dog and can’t help compare my new puppy to him. Which is unfair, to both of them. They’re completely different individuals and should not be held against each other. I also sometimes feel guilty about “replacing” Zappo – which I know is silly. Love doesn’t have a limited quota, it’s perfectly possible to love him and love the puppy too. But I still feel that way every now and then.
With that said, Runa being so young and happy and energetic is a stark contrast to death and grief. It’s impossible not to get sucked in and laugh at her antics. Puppies are a lot of work and she’s doing a fine job of keeping me occupied and focused on the present. 😏
And we’ve set a date for the wedding
Yep, it’s happening this year. I’m getting married on September 15! 😮
Markus and I are not fancy people so our wedding will be a pretty laid-back affair. 30 guests, tops. And no church, just a short non-religious ceremony outdoors by the rapids where I grew up. We’re gonna do almost everything ourselves with the help of my dad and stepmum.
Will probably post a lot more about it as the planning progresses and we get things in order. I’m looking forward to it, I think it’s going to be a lot of fun. :)